I'm exausted from fighting this
I've tried so hard to change
But history repeats itself
And it all remains the same
I can't keep lying to myself
Day after day
This thing is controling me
I'm addicted to the pain
The beautiful overtaking
My flesh begins to weep
It cries the tears it's held so long
And my soul begins to speak
I'm not so scared anymore
For this moment I'm ok
I know when this one fades
I can create my better pain