Naively deceived about this identity,
I used others to abuse me, mock me,
confuse me
Their words were really my words
So far strayed in the shadows,
dreadfully desperate to escape the prison
of fear I had built around myself,
too cowardly to hold a knife to my
own throat, eventually reifying a brother
to do it for me, his hands were really
my hands
He failed though he did heed the call
May I be forgiven for exploiting his fealty