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pheonex
im hurting
there's so much im hiding
a fractured mask to hide the pain
i feel unwanted, dejected
like that lonely child on the playground
that nobody will play with
you see the hurt in their eyes but everybody looks away
like they dont even care
cant they hear my desperate pleas
just someone to share
to share their happiness
but they're all to busy
trying to fit in and belong
even though they know its not them
they change for eachother
when they just cant fix whats wrong
they shun the unmoldable
society always changes
except for the concept to be like everybody else.
i catch my tears in a broken jar
to water that lonely flower who just cant bloom
i feel loneliest in a crowded room
taunting eyes and half hidden lies
whats wrong with this town
i feel like im just sitting here
waiting to drown
why even bother
ill never be pretty enough
skinny enough
smart enough
maybe everybody was right
ill never get anywhere in life
i cant even sleep at night
im filled with so much anger. and hatred.
i cant hold it all on
i just want to scream
ive already lost sight of my dreams
why am i like this?
spinning out of control
i just want this to end
but i refuse to be like them
so ill just cry alone
like i always do
like i always have
theres nothing else i can actually do
so i swing without a push
i slide without a friend
but the seesaw is the hardest
cause no matter how high i push myself up
theres nobody to catch me
when i fall
i tumble to the ground
to the unforgibing mulch or the unstable sand
and let the tears fall like rain till i choke on my own misery
are you happy now?
ive got so many scars
and bruises to
all because i had nobody to turn to
but i hide the pain for your sake
nobody ever has to know
because im like a pheonex
when ive given up and lost it at the end
ill rise up from the ashes of my wake
and start again
