I want to crawl away and die
But I don't want to leave my friends
I want to cry
But there's no one to cry for
I want to break things
But I love my possessions
I want to listen to really loud music
But I don't want to wake my sleeping mother
I want to scream
But all I can do is laugh
I want to be miserable
But I have no reason
I want to write about darkness
But all I can see is light
I want to be angry at the world
But it's been good to me
I want to tear at my skin
But I don't like pain
I want to rip out my heart
But I don't want to die
I want to be happy
But I don't want a catch
I want the polka dots
But I don't want the stripes