I need you to be scared with me

I need you to see why I feel this way

No encouragement needed

No "It will be okay."

If you are scared too,

I would feel a little less insane,

a little less guilty for feeling this way.

I don't know what my future holds,

except for pain and fatigue,

I'm hoping for the best...

but hope is something I need.

I'm scared to think that someday

I'd be too tired to walk,

or maybe it would hurt to much

to even try to talk.

I'm hoping it will be alright,

maybe I should pray...

I know that I need to try

just to make it through each day.

I'm scared, I will not lie,

I feel like my world is crashing down

with every painful sigh.

Please just be scared with me.

Please just hold me and cry,

beacuse if you are scared with me

I promise I will try.

I will try each day to not feel the pain,

to deal with the saddness and woe.

I will try to hold my head up high,

so high you would no one would even know.

Just be scared with me,

so I can be strong.

Just let me know that being scared isn't wrong.

That some where down the road, this could be all gone.

But until that day comes,

being scared is ok...

and you will be beside me,

holding me tightly,

while i sit and cry

until I find that strength

that will guide me.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

This is how I feel two days after being diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis.

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