none of the books said it would be like this
it is the ego that makes us feel the fall...
we struggle against the waves
(grief can tear you apart, if you let it)
mind-emotions
get stuck at
self pity
and we learn how to hide to get what we want
All must fall alone (it is inevitable)
And that moment of Aloneness
tears a hole (in the soul)
I chose grief
(self pity is indulgence)
addiction is more than drugs
Come and find me.
While I turn the other way and look for God, as if the two were not the same.
This winter without snow
(out of kilter)
may have been a dip into
enlightenment