Desperate 4 Change

The pull of the darkness,

Temptation of instant releif.

All to easy, Outcome=defeat.

This lifetaking disease,

I chose to feed.

Anything to feel better, The mind will be free.

I fight for years then fall,

Then I succumb,

Back to my old ways,

Feeling numb.

A gift and a curse,

All in one breath.

It's a part that made me who I am,

And taught me who I'm not.

As long as I participate,

And continue to sell out,

My heart is in a cage,

Longing to get out.

Awake, Alive and fully aware,

Surrounded by nothing but pain and despair.

Too much to handle,

Too much to bear.

No one to love no one to share.

This is all my creation of that I Am aware.

I just get stuck in my head,

Feeling a lack of care.

Inspired to be me,

When I choose what works,

No one to blame,

I Am the creator who created all this shame.

Seeing clearly now,

I desire change.

Life is a gift,

And I'll take on the pain.

Learn all I can,

Let go of the shame.

I Am ready to live,

And embrace my eccentric self,

Give Love to others,

Make choices that support vibrant health.

I Love You to All,

Reminding me of our oneness,

I am enthralled.

 

Author's Notes/Comments: 

I have battled addiction since I was 11 years old. This is me saying I am change. 

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