Banister fantasies

Standing on a balcony

Overlooking the city streets below

The lights were shining upon them

Making them all glow

I'm leaning on a banister

Smoking a cigarette

The banister is the only thing

Keeping me from plummeting

Into the concrete below

The day was depressing

I saw a face which I used to know

That face now haunts my re-occuring dreams

A smile can't crack this face

Which reflects the heart break that we seem to share

All I can do is look away

And pretend that you're not there

Well these city lights are

Blinding the MiDNiGHT SKY above

The stars are trying to peak through

Jealous of the moon

And it's strength to MOVE ON

My eyes try to focus

On the city life below

But all I see are the ashes

Floating to the ground

That welcomes them to their eternal home

Now I wish that I could have found something to say to you

Something that could have possibly

Made us speak the truth

That could have set us free

From this negligence that causes us to DiE

Maybe we could work this out

Maybe we could try to reconcile

All the mistakes we made in the past

But I don't think

That anything could set us free

No, I don't believe

That you could love me again

'Cause I have changed

So many ways over the years

My lips only know the taste of tears

I don't think

That my heart could bring love

All I know is

It became ViCiOUSLY STiLL

No more movement, to invite others in

No more caring, no more empathy for other beings

That develop an attachment to me

I guess I can thank you for this

Because you're the one who did this to me

Making everything stop

Taking away everything from me

But it's okay, dear

They were only sentimental possessions

I can find them again, some day

When I have finally moved on

But that day is far away

I can't begin to imagine when I will reach it

Maybe some day

Maybe we can find a way

To help each other again

I promise I won't be bitter

When your eyes fall upon mine, trying to peek in

Maybe it's just what I need

But then again...

I don't think that

Anything could set us free

No, I don't believe that you could love me again

'Cause I have changed

So many ways over the years

My lips only know the taste of tears

I don't think

That my heart could bring love

All I know is..iT BECAME ViCiOUSLY STiLL

No more movement, to invite others in

But maybe more seratonin

Could change this deadly curse

Maybe more synapses

Could cure this ugly burden

Which seems to be set in stone

Again.

I don't know when it could be lifted

No, I don't know

If I'll ever be the same again

But I am patient

Waiting to hear my name called over the wind

My new love,

Shouting it OVER AND OVER AGAiN

My ears will hear the pleasant sound of "Evelyn, Evelyn!"

Leaving his tongue

Maybe I will be able to love again

And remain with him

But maybe is only a possibility

Let's just hope that

The day comes

When my love will be won

And his lips can complete mine

Let them taste more than tears

His hips will match mine...perfectly

Our grooves finishing a puzzle

That will solve all of life's predicaments

I'm awaiting patiently

To see this day

Maybe it will come

Maybe it will come

Maybe it will come

Then I can stop...

Fantasizing of breaking this banister

And saying Hello to the ashes..



AND THEiR ETERNAL HOME

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Not really a poem, more like a song, I have a tune for it and such..I just liked how it turned out so I figured I'd post it on here :)

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I'm leaning on a banister
Smoking a cigarette

those lines leave an awesome image. i really enjoyed this write. great job