i can still remember what it was like,
back when it was new.
it crawled along slowly at first,
like a baby.
and there were so many ways
that those words fit.
it was a new thing.
not a being per se,
but a new thing nonetheless.
it was newer to you than me.
to me it was a distant memory,
a very vague memory.
an old and familiar friend,
that i had never expected to come back for me.
but it did.
it had been a long time,
and i was a bit too wary to trust the reasons.
i didn't even know what my reasons were at that point.
but it was new, a new thing,
and back then new things weren't to be trusted.
they broke down easier,
and there was always something spent on it.
whether it was money or time, i wanted to keep it around,
but spend very little.
i ended up spending all i had,
and after a while,
it did break down.
like an old thing,
a truck from the sixties,
and it was done,
like a camera with only twenty four pictures.
i have taken my twenty four pictures.
i don't remember them all,
but of the ones i do remember,
i wonder if they were worth it.