every morning when i wake up
and i see you asleep at my side
i cant help but reminesce
i say what if and i miss my old life
i think of nights spent alone
i remember that my hipbones were once painfully visible
i remember the apple whiteness
of my skin, the redness of my
anger seeping through me
I remember the way i used to
do my makeup, the clotes i used to wear, what i used to
say and how everyone stared,
i remember stripping for free
now i'm the only one who will ever see beyond my bikini
i remember no stretch marks and longer
hair, i knew where my linkin park cd was and
my computer knew all about me and we stayed up
late into the night.
i remember being desperate
and feeling so confused
the worst thing I remember
was all of the abuse or when
i knew i was being used and didn't do anything
i remember m bad report cards and my yellow teeth
from all that sugar i still miss the
roleplay and the psych wards too
i misss my evanescence cd and the bus
and the front and feeling
rich and
unstoppable..