little by little
Bit by Bit,
Going deeper and deeper
Inside me,
All the way down
To the source of my pain.
It scrapes away skin
To get to the core;
Then it all lets loose
And flows from me.
My pain is no longer
Inside of me,
As it flows down my arm
In a dark red stream.
It starts at the source,
And wells up in there
Until it can’t be contained
And explodes.
Then it flows freely
Away from me,
Onto a tissue, my shirt,
The floor,
But always, every time
Onto those I love.
But it’s the drop
That lands on them
That leaves a permanent stain;
It pushes them over the edge,
And ruins it for everyone.
My support is now weak,
So I can’t go to him;
He’ll crack if I tell him
What I’m thinking of.
With every fresh drop
That flows from me,
I’m stabbing a dagger
Through his heart.
I’m killing them all
With my own red blood;
Now the family’s in pieces
Just as much as me;
I’ve torn them apart
With a paperclip
And a drop of my own red
Blood.