Shards of glass,
a butcher's knife,
all the tools of my strife,
my bare wrists I wish to cut,
I want to bleed,
then burn it shut,
I want the fire,
I want the pain,
My blood's loss is my soul's gain.
I feel the need and then the slash,
lass pierces flesh in a flash,
Then the knife bites in my thigh
The greatest rush,
the greatest high,
to seal the wound I use the flame,
I've cleared my conscience of the blame,
As searing flesh scents the air,
my fun gives way
to disappear,
I take my meds from the cup
Zyprexa sooths while I bandage up.