On My Own

Lord I do not know what went wrong

I know you are the only one

The only one to fix this hurt

because I am totally clueless on my own



How can I be a christian

when I am always worrying?

How can I be a christian when I struggle to trust in you? I'm trying harder everyday to hand over my very life to you.



You know how much I hurt inside

Father I feel like I fail

When I try time after time

To trust in you with my life

I try my hardest to see the positive

But I always seem to cave to the flesh



How can I be a christian

when I am always worrying?

How can I be a christian when I struggle to trust in you? I'm trying harder everyday to hand over my very life to you.





I can't comprehend how things will work out

I screwed up big time

I made a big mistake

Now I keep on wondering

How will I survive today?



I must of scared her away

I pray each day on my mistake

I found her so interesting

I kept relying on my own understanding

I took matters into my own hands

Now my only hope is it being in your hands



Now I keep worrying

But you tell me not to worry

But it's such a hard thing to do

When all that life has given

Is hardship and rejection

But I just try my hardest to stay focussed on you



How can I be where I am?

How can I call myself christian?

How can I say I am close to you?

When I just keep on worrying?



I do not like feeling this way

Man I would have loved to gotten to know her

But you keep telling me not to worry

Man I just do not know how to survive today


Author's Notes/Comments: 

This can be applied to any situation in life. This for me is just something I am struggling with. I am still unsure if I did anything wrong. But I just let God know about it all, and he keeps telling me he is in control.  This is more of an admittance than anything. How can I be a christian when I am alway worrying? How can I be a christian when I struggle to trust in you? I'm trying harder everyday to hand over my very life to you. I believe this is every christians struggle in some way. I am not scared to admitt that I am still scared of how  this situation of mine will work out. I do not know if things will get better or not, but so far it does seem like they will.  

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