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Dreams, malignant thoughts
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Abuse She watches for him pull up the drive
ready to pamper him, and ready to love him
Ready to make him feel like he is worth a million bucks
But instead he just begins to shout
And the words he delivers
Bruises her already torn heart within
But yet she's in denial refusing
to notice the damage being done
She believe's he's a blessing
Because he is providing all the money
The vacations to Bermuda, the bahamas
makes her feel like she's dead wrong
To even have the thoughts that are on her mind
The thoughts that she feels is a plague
Ready to explode at any given time
She's been pushed to her very limit
but yet she has not given in
She's so scared of being wrong
Even when he slaps her around
Terrified of her malignant thoughts
thinking of the one day he will be dead
She always thinks of how he will burn in hell
She can't wait to see him tortured
Yet her outward appearance says otherwise
She's wearing a neatly prepared disguise
One that will throw everyone off
And will decieve others into thinking nothing is wrong
Inside she is being torn
Internal bleeding, emotions thrown
She's just feeling worthless
because the thoughts she can no longer contain
Are so dangerously overwhelming
She's in the red, almost wishing she was dead
But somewhere there has to be hope
and somewhere she figures someone will hold her
Someone she knows will be worth the wait for
Someone has to be there to pick my broken heart up
Because this is all she can hope for
and all that she lives for
And hopefully she prays every night
that one day her dreams will one day fly
And one day she will soar
a winner, an achiever, one with respect
And one day she will see herself as beautiful
But the life she is in currently weighs her down
Please God please heavenly Father help me out
Lord please give me strength to carry on
cuz I can no longer do this on my own
This is my cry, please meet with me tonight
Because I'm so broken,and I need you here with me
Take all this away from me, and bless me
