Locking myself up with the fear of being exposed
I slowly and painfully found out that this was an empty road
I had no where else to go
No one to turn to
all my selfish actions were unjust
But this suffering is what I had to go through
To make reality clear
that I'm not the only one here
Not the only one with problems on the earth
You need to open up
humble yourself with a softened heart
Otherwise you're setting youself up
For the rotting death of the heart
I know you're hurting right now
Every single person on this earth knows pain
but try to take the focus off yourself
Because in this life there's actually something to gain
You can always come crying to me
I'll always be here for you
I'll lead you down the right path
I'll be here to lift you, to hug and to hold you
Author's Notes/Comments:
I'm probably going to add more to this, but I just started to type whatever came to my mind. But the whole story behind this is there was a time when I was in a depression and all I could think of was myself. My heart was hardened and that just brought on even more heartache. I am doing better now, but I still believe I am paying the consequences today. Insecurities seem to be a part of me, and just other things I wished I wasn't, all because I wasn't focussed on God, and I was so focussed on myself. now I am not saying you're a bad person to be depressed. I did read that experiencing these feelings only proves that you are human, but God has been there for me, even when I wanted to give up and turn on him, I know when he talks to me, and tells me when not to give up. I can tell when it's the enemy trying to tell me I am worthless and that trying is not worth it because the answer will always be no to whatever you do try.
