PostPoems Be Artistic. Be Creative. Be Inspired!

Every single time I feel like junk I notice I begin to hate the material posessions I have. I have a 32 inch tv in my room, a nice surround sound system, and I have a flat screen 17 inch monitor for my comp, a wireless keyboard and mouse(basically top of the line) I have a pair of 100 dollar shoes(and they were on sale) I have 3 guitars, a drumset, a car, a nice alpine stereo system with a good sub and amp. I have had people from my youth group come over one night to watch movies and the girl I liked thought I had such a cool room. Why don't I feel blessed in this area then??? Why do I begin to hate my tv, and surround sound stuff. The only thing I enjoy is my guitar, drums and car. Everything else I would just love to give away, smash up, and I just find the rest totally worthless. What good is all my stuff if I do not have people to share it with?? What good is my tv to watch movies on if no one else is going to cuddle up with me on the couch?? what good is all the material junk I have if I can not use it to bring joy to others? What good is it when I am the only one who uses it?? You know what I mean?? With my drums and guitar and computer I can reach out to others. My computer I could care less if I had a wireless keyboard etc...but my comp is what I use to pray online for people across the world. Its what I use to write songs/poems for people. My guitar and drums is what I use to worship God, and to express myself. Everything else is just worthless to me, and I wouldn't care if all the stuff was taken away. I want friends more than anything, I want love. The Bible even says what a man wants more than anything is unconditional love, faithful love and a person that will not turn on them. I never realized the truth behind that verse till now. Sooo many times I would be watching t.v. wishing at least for someone to cuddle with on the couch, and nothing more. I come home and this room is empty to me filled with worthlessness. I begin to hate it, and want to smash everything in sight.  My car is another thing I really get use out of. I use it to pick others up, to go driving around late at night and talk to God. Its what I used to get away from all the junk that's happening and for myself to escape reality just for a few hours. Its what I use to think, to reflect, to collect my thoughts, to think about others, to make decisions, to reach out to others. I drive late at night hoping to find people that need help.  I use my car to cruise with my friend, it's like my second home.  I also use my car to go to church and studies. Well this has been on my mind and needed to get it out!!