Denying the access of new potential royalty
to offer shares of our contract
and grant emotional royalties...
to willingly kibosh the opportunity
to fill in voids in my life
to fulfill this spirit
is an admission to myself that I don't need anybody to define what I'm about
...that said, in the instance of such admissions
I'm lying to myself
when sulked and sullied
For myself, this secure stronghold I procure
is an admission of a life barricaded
what I once cherished no longer thrives
but above all...I simply don't want to lose the memories of who once meant so much to me
in a new sea of uncertainty
despite the assumed knowledge, hard-knock wisdom,
and the ability to lure a new chapter in my novel
I assure you, once you're past the bitter pills
i cast empirically with such unbridled will
When my attention
carries full retention
of your beautiful
mind, body, and personality
I'm actually a quite approachable, enjoyable person
I'll give you as much heart as you're willing to offer
for yourself
but I must proclaim
I cannot relinquish what is still tangible so carelessly anymore -
I'm all in or all out
a lustrous luminary or a forgotten firestorm -
no element of this vessel is crafted of paper any longer
so step aboard, or step aside