JPC 8.13.04

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I guess this is how the story ends
with you lost, us left to mend
how can you justify yourself
when you break everyone else

can this be what you wanted?
does not make sense

 

..when you were up against the fence
all you did was dig your own grave
and hid.

choked your soul, lost control

 

And now we all feel the same
Because you felt different

 

If I could ask a question to you?

 

But for who?  you??

 

That does not ease me, that will not do
It teases me
Into believing your loneliness
Was token of my negligence

 

I was not blind, but I never expected this..

 

Now we fall victim to your secrecy
and it eats me

 

Wishing, knowing i could have done more
maybe then i would not see you
6 feet beneath me

 

But you are gone
Carry on, carry on..
view futures as gifts to lift
my renewed soul above the marginal sift
of mediocre stiffs in this world

 

We come to realize a truth
Exists not in textbook, not learned in institution

 

Life is a marathon...

 

And above all else a gem of great luster
And despite the dust and corrosive rusts
Is not lust, but love..
Memories unaltered in time, place...

 

Safe to say my life has changed
So if i may, i say thanks James, in vain.

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KindredSpirit's picture

As I am not someone

Who likes to go back

I have to thank Stella for bringing

This Gem to my attention.

 

Absolutely Love it .

KS

Haley Davis's picture

I miss him too.

((This is Haley Davis by the way))

I stumbled across your site, and although I didn't have an account on here I felt I needed to comment you on this poem, to let you know I read it and obviously understand every word of it.

www.allpoetry.com is where my poetry is, incase you're interested in reading some of my stuff on James. My username is TheClosestThing.

Hope you're doing well,
Haley-

allets's picture

"...when you break everyone else..."

nice images of remembrance - Stella


 

 

deepblue's picture

oh wow

definitely took me back as well, penned this nearly 12 years ago when I was 17...lot of raw emotion, heartbreak, anger at him, anger at myself... still think about James all the time and wish he wouldn't have made the decision he did, crazy.  That said, thank you both for the positive feedback, this is one of few that I've never edited over time

allets's picture

Just Reread

Ageless.