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it starts like a wave of arrogance
it feels like being hit with an anvil
it conquers but leaves
in the sea of secrecy...

 

it is the pain that keeps me calm
it is the disgust that gives me passion
it is the zig when i should have zagged
in this sea of jealousy...

 

i am hurt yet i am stronger
i have pressed on, but i am still here
every time i stop to look...
it is taken away from me

 

it is the sea for only me

Author's Notes/Comments: 

well, this is my first one submitted, it speaks of internal conflict from strife, it is very universal for interpretation though

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vettie's picture

Love the title feels like an

Love the title feels like an exact proclamation. All of the " in the & it is the seas," "it starts like a wave of arrogance" and " it is the disgust that gives me passion" all placed with precision. Fantastic

deepblue's picture

Very kind of you :) thank you

Very kind of you :) thank you very much and take care 

SSmoothie's picture

Love it. 

Love it. 


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."

deepblue's picture

thank you both very much. 

thank you both very much.  It's kinda crazy... I penned this 15 years ago and at some point between then and now I made a priority to never use the word 'it' when I have an opportunity to be more detailed in my descriptions... but I read this one back and the 'it' works.  Thanks for reminding me, take care

raminastar's picture

"it is the pain that keeps me calm"

I really like this poem.. it is an excellent example of internal conflict. If we are to be truthful with ourselves we would find that we all have these battles. It is what your outcome is that makes you great. :) Thanks for sharing! I love it.. especially this line, "it is the pain that keeps me calm".

deepblue's picture

thank you much

you're really taking me back here - wrote this one a looong time ago hah, high school days. totally agree with your input though..about finding self-truths..it's a topic i've touched upon many, many times since (Aloe is like this poem's much younger brother) - no matter how much we change as people throughout our lives we still can find ourselves conflicted with our own thoughts and decisions.. and we often struggle to find the ability to be definitive as we'd like to be. (or at least I do)

Calm is one of the most vital ingredients in discovering the right answers for ourselves when the time's right- it keeps our sensors free and clear of any knee-jerk reactions

But anyway thanks again for reading - I've read a lot of your material as well and it's really *stunning*, keep up the great work :)

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;)

You know I will be honest with you, I have read your work before but I have only recently begun to feel as if I rated to comment on anyones work. Poppy has been an inspiration and welcoming calm for me. I have been here on this site for 8 years as well. I have been writting since right after you were born lol. I was 5 years old when I wrote my first poem. It was called.. my lil kitty loves me. Poetry is so important and I love to read other peoples work.. for me it is a portal to the soul. I realize some people can write without feeling something. I am not one of them and so for me, it's personal and so beautiful. You will be hearing some of the thoughts I have always wanted to say to you from now on. I wont hold back anymore :) Promise, just do me a favor. Whether here or somewhere else, do not stop writing. You are gifted and poetry is our soul. You can't keep it bottled or it will find a way to break out like magma in a super volcano. It will burst forth destroying everything in its path. lol I know.. I am sooo dramatic sometimes but I mean it. I bottled mine up for a while. Any how I am so super tired but can't sleep so this may be gibberish sorry LOL. Take care deepblue >^.~<

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Anvil Bruises

I have a few of those. Loooong ago conflicts eventually were seen for what they were: woolgathering in a minefield. Now I breath calm all the time - it's easier on the heart and the toenails grow more evenly (Just re-read 2x) Nice penning this -slc-

Reread 07-08-18 The openness and  honesty of your most recent poem is here.