does it count if it is
just a sigh or
just a breath of a new air
sickly sweet with the warm buzz of regret or
a nightmare disguised as a dream but
you do not know it is something to fear until
you have been scared out of your own skin and
made to question the situation as
an outsider viewing a desperate film
does it make you look like the one who is lost it and
is trying to desperately hold on to something that
deteriorated long before you knew it was tangible or
had the potential to be such or
was it arbitrary and done on a whim with
an excuse to not let yourself actually feel those
pangs of emptiness
does it leave you with the taste of
pennies or even dimes because
you know of the possible wealth the
possible accumulation of two beings but
you stop and let go because it is not an accumulation rather
a surge into a debt of your soul
I really do like how well
I really do like how well this is written.