As I put pen to paper and thoughts to focus,
I end up falling on you and my heart leaps,
Now I'm not sure if that's good or bad,
But I feel something,
Which means that makes you that much bigger,
That much more crucial in bigger pictures,
This much I know and it scares me,
I'm sure you must think I don't think much about you,
And maybe I won't sometimes, but other times I can't help it,
I don't know if that's good or bad yet,
But I know I feel something,
I can't make you go away,
It's not like I want to anyway,
But I'm still afraid,
Maybe tomorrow when I figure this out,
When I somehow manage to handle this bout,
We can sit together and have a drink,
Without having our trademark fight,
Maybe someday I'd have faced my demons,
And in all those night maybe I'll be dreaming,
Of you (just you), and not these wretched nightmares.