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Homesick
Surrounded by so many
and yet she is alone.
She has yet to find a heart
that she can call a home.
She wishes to find a peace
of mind as to why she wants love.
Love only hurts you in the end
it's not worth the pain that comes.
The pain that is brought on by jealousy
by passion, grief, anger, and lust.
The complex feelings and thoughts
contradict everything, they only readjust.
They rearrange what you thought you knew
make you question yourself and what you believe.
Believe in something so completely real
and to have complete faith that it will never leave.
You have to throw yourself into love headfirst
or else you will never be able to love completely.
You can't just dip your toes in and get a feel
you can't hide it and try and sneak around discretely.
She doesn't have the trust that love demands
she's been hurt too many times to believe his feelings are real.
She wishes that the past was in an amnesiac state
that she could just throw away her fears and totally feel.
She wants to feel whole, to feel complete once again
she wants to be happy with another by her side.
But she's too scared of the possible pain
that would be brought upon her if she were to be in love.
She wants to be able to throw herself in headfirst
she wants to be able to feel love with all of her being.
She's sick of just dipping her feet in but never getting a feel
she doesn't want to live discretely, she wants to be seen.
Of all the things she wants
and of all the feelings she fears.
The thing that she doesn't want
is to live alone all her years.
She knows she's surrounded by many
but she still doesn't care.
She feels so lonely inside and so homesick
and she's just so tired of being scared.
