A Tear in Texas

(In memory of Dave Williams ~2/29/72-8/14/02~)



I open my eyes in the wake of a dream and wonder if anything in this oblique world is truly real

I close my eyes and return to my perpetual nightmare wondering if my emotional scars will ever heal

How did I get here, how did you leave? It all happened so fast

Why did I live, why did you die? I can never let what happened stay in the past

It wasn't supposed to be like this, you got lost in your own glow

No one can ever replace you, but we still must continue the show

We are born knowing one thing for sure, everybody goes away

The only guarantee we have in life is that one day we will die; it's so sad that you couldn't stay

Everyday you are gone is just another day I wonder "why"

Everyday we live is just another day we die.



...His artwork was a splendid masterpiece, yet he was only a beginner

A poet that I truly admired; I'll raise my hand with the rest of the world, the rest of your fans, for I am too a sinner

What a great inspiration, a sinner who never committed a sin

What a true gentleman, he could count to four...and still nothing was wrong with him

Your future was so bright, why did you have to go knocking on Heaven's door so soon?

Your talent would have taken you even higher, let his body hit the floor on this August afternoon

"Now I'm tearing away

Pieces are falling and I can't seem to make them stay"

When you're drowning in a pool, it's so hard to swim

A man who possessed a magnificent soul, he didn't really mean it when he said that he didn't care about anyone else but him

The memories will always be there, I can't just let them go

"Can you believe it? Everything happens for reasons that I just don't know"

What he did there was no need to regret

What he said I will never forget

"I will never throw away

Everything I learned today"

There's something changing in me, among the rubble and debris

There's something growing in me, and now it's taking over me

I never got to say "hello" and it's too late to say "farewell"

He spent his life straight to the top, certainly not 30 years straight to Hell

A little boy so scared and frightened, now he's free

I'll always be reminded of you when I listen to your CD

"Accept your fate then you'll be well

But the truth is that it never ends

You can say that you've been though Hell

But you'll always lose another friend"

His life was served on a plate

for all of his fans to eat

He took all his love and hate

And put it in his music's beat

He was no more than a stranger to me, but was still the family member that I never met

If he was still alive today, he would not want me to pity him I bet

He could have been, he could gave been, he could have been, and he was

Making it to the main stage at Ozzfest, receiving a standing applause

"I understand that with this comes frustration, but I've found a better way to follow though

I've realized that I'm far from done, and that the truth is right there in front of you"

Well everything is not okay

Tomorrow's another day

But I won't find my perfect way out

Trying to find a way to make you stay

My heart turns black and the sky turns gray

Coming to find that this tragedy was just a dream is the only thing I care about

"I'm trying to find away to fight the pain,

But there seems to be no way around it

Reaching for the sun and finding rain

I melt; I'll always be grounded"

Just eleven songs on a CD brought you everlasting fame

Life is no more than a spectator sport; sadly your time ran out to play the game

I can't take this

Wish I could just fake this...



I open my blinds in the middle of a thunderstorm and ponder if the sun will ever again shine

I close my blinds and return to my dark apartment asking myself why you had to leave prior to your true potential and prime

How did I get to where I am, how did you leave? It all happened really quick

Why am I breathing, why did you tear away? The answers make me numb and sick

It was never supposed to end like this, you got caught in the undertow

Jason "Gong" Jones and Ryan McCombs will now replace you; they will continue the show

We are born knowing one thing and one thing only; we will never be alive forever

The sole promise we have in life is death; now it's time to welcome the atrocious weather

Everyday your soul lives on is just another day my body slowly decays and dies

Everyday you are gone is just another day Texas cries

Author's Notes/Comments: 

this poem is in memory of Dave Williams, the former lead singer of the rock band Drowning Pool, who passed away on August 14th, 2002. The parts of the poem in quotes are song lyrics from Drowning Pool songs directly incorporated into the poem, as if Dave himself was helping me bleed this poem onto white lined paper and scream it to the world. R.I.P Dave, we greatly miss you.

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