I vividly recall scattered Sunday mornings in May in the years of my youth
We would skip church and silently pray in the field of forget me nots behind the congested chapel
Marveling over the splendid shades of blue, yellow, red, and violent while picking a bouquet of tulips and cherished time well spent from the rainbow on the ground
You would always remind me of what April showers would eventually bring
And you were always right
You would never lie to me
Honesty is something almost impossible to come by these days
Except for in the eyes of an 80 year old angel
I distinctly remember abundant August evenings walking barefoot along the Connecticut shoreline
Looking out across the sound to Long Island, trying to touch Grandpa’s grave on the other side
You found a seashell buried underneath the sand and said that it reminded you of me
So little…yet so beautiful and shiny and full of potential once someone grabs it out of the sand and throws it into the water
You always had a way of making up these magnificent metaphors and spectacular similes that even a perfect poet, such as Plath or Poe or Pope, would never, in a million years, imagine
So I thank you for throwing me into the ocean on those never-ending nights
And teaching me how to swim
I often replay in my head our final cherished seconds together
Holding your hand in the hospital assuring you everything will be okay and you’ll soon find home in a more peaceful place
The woman who always offered me the best advice...now looking up to me for the right words to guide her soul to a safe flight
I skip church every Sunday to visit your grave in the field of forget me nots behind the abandoned chapel
And I wait until May comes along to make you another rainbow
I often climb the family tree hovering above your headstone
Scrutinizing the many branches of our past, present, and future
But I never even try to make it up to the top
For I would never dare to even attempt to take your place on the pinnacle
And sometimes when the snow falls hard, and a smaller family tree with presents under it is placed in the living room
I look at old photographs in my mind of the times we spent together
And reminisce on the memories I wouldn’t exchange for all the riches of the world
But I would throw this poem away into the Atlantic Ocean
Or bury it in that forgotten field of flowers behind the decaying chapel
If I could just make those tree shaped Christmas cookies with you
One more time