Conversations In The Mirror

Each day I told you

That I hate you

I’d berate you

I’d tell you how you’d fail

And that nothing would turn out well

 

And yes, I told you

That you weren’t worth a hill of beans

That you’d never amount to anything

And that you’d never find anyone or anything

That would make you happy

 

I told you

That true love no longer exists

That I wasn’t just being a pessimist

And your search for love and happiness

It was over

 

And I told you

All the times you fell

For one who didn’t mean you well

How stupid you had become

Thinking you’d found the one

 

And I told you

There would only be darker nights

That darkness had extinguished hopes light

And that no one could ever love you

After all that you’ve been through

 

And I told you

That I knew you were tired of all the pain

That the anxiety and depression brang

No one would ever understand

Even if you tried to tell them

 

And each day 

I meant every word I said

Looking in the mirror wishing you were dead

And I was sure God would understand

If you weren’t here anymore

 

But 

You're still here

You made it through those years

And I tell you that all those scars

Made you the man you are

 

And I tell you

You should let the past fade away

You shouldn’t live in yesterdays

You can be who you were meant to be

For all the world to see

 

And I tell you

That you should know your worth

You should live your dream on Earth

And you should leave heaven

Where it has always been

 

And I tell you

Let your positive action write your eulogy

By just being the best you that you can be

Because you never know when

You never know when . . .

Will be the end

Author's Notes/Comments: 

I wrote this because I was really down on myself at the time. I wrote it to express that, as well as what I might say if I was a positive person.