On cold days
His body grew tense
For his mind was back in the gulag
He ached liked he'd been beaten
And had swung a hammer all day
He remembered pissing on his hands
In order to feel them
To warm them
Feeling the stinging of urine
On the cuts and calluses
Sometimes feeling ice crystals form
He recalled how all day he thought
Of two stale, dry, and often green pieces of bread
And a ladle of balanda
Hopefully with an once of flesh stuck to the bones
His mouth stinging from the salt
And parched with painful thirst
He could still see his cell
Could smell the unemptied bucket
See his breath in the gray darkness
Could feel the floor
Where he laid his pounding head
And dreamed of blankets
There was a crack in the windowless wall
Through which he saw a solitary daffodil
That had bloomed too early
But managed to live through the frost and snow
Inspired, he resolved to outlive the "Man of Steel"
Who sent him there
His young body grew older and weaker
But his spirit was stone
The others told him that if you survived the first year
You would live to be free
He'd even eat the roaches that crawled across the floor
For he knew he had to be strong
And when he saw the outside world
He learned that his dream had come true
He laughed a laugh of victory
When he heard Stalin was dead
Every year he saves the first daffodil
And he smiles like he is seventeen again