I started off a slow and steady pace.
but as i go, i speed up as if it was a race.
glancing & staring over my shoulder & all around.
hearing the dogs bark, cars speed by, & an awkward sound.
my body has no feelings for it has went numb.
wow was I pissed that the brother was so dumb.
i continue my journey as i go really fast.
i sure dont want this lonely trip to last.
the ice breaks where i tend to creep.
all I want to be is home & asleep.
i get caught the red stop light.
i figure this was gonna be one very long night.
i hear the VROOM of the truck beside me.
i look and smile and let it be.
then i hear a whistle or was it a voice?
i wait for the light even longer because i have no choice
i waited,wishing it'd hurry and turn white.
at last it finally did as i tried to get out of sight.
i went into the store to get me some chips.
tried to take longer as i looked at different dips.
then i had to go back out into the cold.
wishing i was invisible as nasty old mold.
there he was right before my eyes.
that is when it turned to my cries.
never before had i felt this way.
this was the worst ever freaking DAY.
faster and faster I tried to go.
just to get rid of him. didnt you know?
i seen so many lights all around me.
hoping this stranger would realize & let me be.
i went faster and faster through each lane.
hoping and praying to get away from all the pain.
i knew no matter what i did,
i was no match for him.. i was still a kid.
i flew & flew and couldn't stop
even when my stomach hurt & was ready to pop.
i knew nobody near by in this place.
but i was currently in first in this race.
i had to keep it that way.
or i knew i wouldn't wake up the next day.
i got closer & closer to where i was going.
then didnt you know it started snowing.?
i cried & cried because it was supposed to happen this way.
it was supposed to be special & romantic & he was to stay.
it wasn't supposed to be tears of pain.
this was too much..it'll drive me insane.
i was supposed to be happy and full of joy.
i was supposed to lose it to my love of a boy.
not to a man who is scary and big.
not to someone who lerked at me like a twig.
not to someone who hid in the dark.
but to someone who made me spark.
this will haunt me late at night in bed.
i will never be able to get this image out of my head.
i cried and cried til he was done.
i really hope he would hurry on with his fun.
he wasnt supposed to catch me as i ran.
but i know my feet arent as fast as his truck or van.
i didnt think it would happen this way.
i try to erase this part of the day.
i can't & i never will so i cry.
and this will be with me til the day i die =[