I yearn for companionship
Yet I shun those who reach out a helping hand
I would do anything to just be loved for once
Yet I turn my back on any chance of that
My soul calls out into the darkness
Yet I shut out all the light
My mind screams at my conscience
Yet I ignore all the hints
My heart shatters because of my silence
Yet I hold it all in hoping it will go away
My body prays for release
Yet I deny it even that simple pleasure