Secret of My Destruction
Tears burn their way down my cheek,
as screams of failure echo in my ears.
Visions of the most painful memories
start to deceive my heart and mind.
Ripping the soul from my body,
I lay naked in a dream of lies.
Listening to the whispered cries of
his heart, yearning to be with me.
The fear grows with each breath
as I crawl into my corner and hide.
Scared to hear from truth's lips
the secret to my own demise.
The haunting figure from my dreams,
terrorizing every inch of life left in me.
It writes it's name on the farthest wall,
using my own blood as it's ink.
I wander through it's torture maze,
wanting to set my soul free once more.
TO rid the dark thoughts from mind,
and the fear held within my eyes.
Crawling into it's cold, hateful arms,
it carries me to my dark truth.
This dark hooded figure is none
other then me....
I build my walls around me
to keep the endless pain out.
But now it seems the walls are too thick,
keeping even love from me.
How do you rebuild a life so shattered?
How can I begin to let myself finally heal?
Does the time for happiness come
in this lifetime or the next?