My body is cold and weary
trying to shake thoughts from my head
but lying in my room tearing
I can't control my dreams or what i said
revealing what i've hidden
though i force the feelings away
untill heart is numb, forbidden
can't break the hold where i lay
I caught your eye for a moment
and watched your smile slowly fade
if you only knew the torment
I'll never be okay
why do secretly gaze beyond the tables
watching as you laugh and eat?
why do i fill my head with things
that i know could never be?
I can never tell a soul about how i still feel
and even if i did you'd never believe it was real
its true my heart belongs to another
and that i gave him my soul
so i don't understand why i bleed
my spirits growing old