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Distant Thoughts
Distant thoughts get further away
Like a sailboat
waving goodbye to land
I still don't seem to understand
Why sometimes I want to visit that island
I know I shouldn't be even thinking these
Thoughts of you
My mind goes into that Idle reminiscing mode sometimes
You know I can't control it
I actually charged an old phone I had
When we were together
It captured the beginning of our relationship
I didn't think I still had those images
Images I hadn't seen in a while
Of those exciting beginning times at my place
You losing so much sleep
Before going to work at Lifefoam in the morning
Long nights without the Tv
In the darkness just in to each other
skimpy lace boy shorts and topless
Big curly fro you know?
Though those old cell phone images
It's like I caught a time capsule
In a bottle
Floating endlessly at sea
waiting for me to revisit
I really didn't want to but I did
Haven't thought about you in a while
So I wonder why now?
I think it was something about you that I
Miss and is missing in my life
That I'll never reclaim,
Maybe because God made you unique
I guess I haven't had the moments yet to physically
Share with my girlfriend
Maybe God wanted it that way
So I will never take for granted
Those lost images in the cell phone
The nights we just caressed each other
With the glow of the streetlights
Those 4 months of bliss, that I miss
I haven't even held a woman in my arms
Since you
My Lord knows it's been tough on me
I think He wanted it this way
So when I share those moments
Holding her like I once did you
I will think of the times alone when
All I had was distant images
In my cell
Distant touches late night
Distant thoughts
that are shadows of what we had so briefly
I know we weren't meant to be but damn
Didn't it feel so good in the beginning?
It's been very humbling being alone
Building this Godly union not in the physical
But in letters and on the phone
It's probably the most grueling wait of my life
I know it will be rewarding though
This is the first time I really wrote in a while
I just was reflecting looking at those moments
In time when you were mine
I know they are very far away from you
But I honestly haven't had that touch on my skin since you
So let me wrap this up and get back
To loving and waiting for my new love
and pour into her what could have been with us
Just want to say when your with someone a part of them
stays with you
So thoughts may be distant
But they were a lot closer this evening.
God bless you T m
