Distant Thoughts

Distant thoughts get further away

Like  a sailboat

waving goodbye to land

I still don't seem to understand

Why sometimes I want to visit that island

I know I shouldn't be even thinking these

Thoughts of you

My mind goes into that Idle reminiscing mode sometimes

You know I can't control it

I actually charged an old phone I had

When we were together

It captured the beginning of our relationship

I didn't think I still had those images

Images I hadn't seen in a while

Of those exciting beginning times at my place

You losing so much sleep

Before going to work at Lifefoam in the morning

Long nights without the Tv

In the darkness just in to each other

skimpy lace boy shorts and topless

Big curly fro you know?

Though those old cell phone images

It's like I caught a time capsule

In a bottle

Floating endlessly at sea

waiting for me to revisit

I really didn't want to but I did

Haven't thought about you in a while

So I wonder why now?

I think it was something about you that I

Miss and is missing in my life

That I'll never reclaim,

Maybe because God made you unique

I guess I haven't had the moments yet to physically

Share with my girlfriend

Maybe God wanted it that way

So I will never take for granted

Those lost images in the cell phone

The nights we just caressed each other

With the glow of the streetlights

Those 4 months of bliss, that I miss

I haven't even held a woman in my arms

Since you

My Lord knows it's been tough on me

I think He wanted it this way

So when I share those moments

Holding her like I once did you

I will think of the times alone when

All I had was distant images

In my cell

Distant touches late night

Distant thoughts

that are shadows of what we had so briefly

I know we weren't meant to be but damn

Didn't it feel so good in the beginning?

It's been very humbling being alone

Building this Godly union not in the physical

But in letters and on the phone

It's probably the most grueling wait of my life

I know it will be rewarding though

This is the first time I really wrote in a while

I just was reflecting looking at those moments

In time when you were mine

I know they are very far away from you

But I honestly haven't had that touch on my skin since you

So let me wrap this up and get back

To loving and waiting for my new love

and pour into her what could have been with us

Just want to say when your with someone a part of them

stays with you

So thoughts may be distant

But they were a lot closer this evening.



God bless you T m

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