(04) 5/25/82 Is Missing You So Wrong?

 

Is Missing You So Wrong?

by Elizabeth Van Cleve (May 25, 1982)

 

Days, often weeks, go by and you don't call me

So I start worrying and end up calling you

It makes me wonder if you don't want me

I get afraid you might wish I didn't call you

 

You've never told me anything of this

I just don't understand, because I miss you a lot

I don't ever feel anything missing in your kiss

But, is it you don't need me a whole lot

 

I never doubt you love me

I feel it when you're here

Why is it you can live without me

And I just live in fear?

 

I've dreamt of you surprising me

Showing up when I'm feeling lonely

Saying you'll never leave me 

And that I'm your "one and only"

 

Do you wait for me to call you?

Because I wait for you to call me

Do you ever think I may not miss you?

I wish I knew you missed me

 

I missed you the moment you drove away

I thought I'd head back in and cry

I wished we were together just one more day

I even missed you before you said goodbye

 

Is it you're some confident giant?

With me, I don't know what to do

I wish I was more self-reliant

But even then, I still would love you

 

Tell me, is missing you so wrong?

It's too hard to forget about you

Is my life to be some sad song?

What am I to do?

 

There was a time you asked me to marry you

I told you yes, but then you questioned what would be in store

And something shut its door inside of you

If I knew your really wanted me now, I'd say yes once more

 

It's time Babe to admit our weaknesses

Together we can be so much stronger

I'd much rather see "out in the open" weaknesses

Hey, we might even stay together longer.

 

Author's Notes/Comments: 

This poem was written during the time Tom was moving.  He told me he was moving closer to his work.  I didn't have a home phone number for him, but he was still answering my calls at work.  I deluded myself into thinking we were still together, because he talked to me on the phone.  I'd wait and see if he called me, but he never did.  Then, I'd call him to ask if he could see me.  Each time, he told me that he was too busy.

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Noelle S's picture

i like it. i actually know how that feels, well of course in my own teenage love sort of way....which remindes me, i wanted to ask you how you feel about that, teenage love, just cuz
~noelle