today, i am
flooded by the yesterday,
of us, together
this ever present in me, deep regret,
rooted in the things i left behind
and how i can't forget,
to what i was attached
which was more than i expected,
an all hastened moment
when i first turned my back,
never suspecting that
such a vacancy would be left,
beyond my mending
or better yet
i wanted to feel the lingering,
as a reminder
to appreciate how close one gets
and how she felt like everything i wanted,
that so desperately,
i tried to convince
a friend of what i needed, so selfishly
to risk, her strength, for my weakness,
i asked for more, than our timing could allow
and now my hands are empty
and my heart beats, aching,
for all the little things that remind me,
of you.