i can't keep doing this to myself.
describe an easy feeling,
it's easy to interpret
the jungle, where fury stalks it's prey.
so inviting of it,
the terms
i thought i wanted,
are so proportioned to decay,
...to my dismay.
it's all in personal tape,
covered by the joy,
of no longer empty,
i'm round, you're square
but still you fit.
i make the paper pretty
scribbled in words of my need,
but still you fail to receive
my informations meaning,
...and forward i could never be.
i talk myself in circles,
i bring you close, to push you
further from me,
everyday.
the shove so subtle and yet
my hearts not stone
or plastic,
but still i can't deny how fake
...it feels to be.
the room, where gloom has known me,
i locked the door, behind me,
the curtains drawn,
i want no sun,
to shine light on subjects
open heart surgery cannot fix,
...it's all routine.
just like the way that i bleed
i call your name, you turn
i run.
i doubt you'll ever catch me~