I wish I could tell you I miss you
And that I think about you a lot lately
But that would only complicate things
Between us
Because I was the one who pushed you away
"Don't get too attached to me," I said
What kind of person would say that?
I justified it
Said I still have things to figure out by myself
Said I didn't want to be unfair to you
Said that I wanted you to be happy
But the truth is
I'm just really terrified of losing my independence
I'm terrified of trusting someone
And getting my heart broken (like so many others)
And I still am
So, yes, I miss you, but I have to bear it
After all, I still have things to figure out by myself
But someday, somewhere, when I'm okay
I'd like to see you again.