I sit here to write about a time come to pass.
back to school and back to class.
Back to times where none was fair
and the bullies were everywhere.
Back to a time where all felt wrong
the days a haze and the nights frightfully long.
Stuck in my head
contimplaiting my own mortality instead of going to bed.
Dreams more lucid and real
than every day awake
is how it would feel.
Back to school and back to class
back to the fear of not going to pass.
Back to a time when it was better and worse
back when i didnt have to worry about my next meal or have a knife in her purse.
My love keeps me calm and keeps me sane
when the last guy would rather ignore me for some mindless video game.
He left me broken and hurt
guilt tripped me and left me to rot in the dirt.
Now im picking up the pieces and trying to find my peace
knowing with him lies a bit of my soul,
a lost puzzle piece.
Stronger and stronger i do grow
though shade i am not trying to throw.
Like the lorax i speak what is true
but not for trees and not for you.
I speak a truth that is true for me
the hurt i feel may be small to you, nothing but a sting of a bee
but to me it rings loud
and it cuts deep.
I am messed up for sure thats true
but of the person i have become and who i am
the only word that comes to thought is proud.
Proude of living another day
proud of the accomplishments i have made
proud that i am staying true to who i am
and living my truth as a bisexual trans man.