A letter to Bill

Dear Ex,


You were so right when you said  "it was not you it was me" and no, it wasn't just a cheap line you fed me. Today I am letting go and I'm taking your excuse to an all new therapy level7


"It wasn't me" that begged me to marry you when I told you I didn't ever want to try marriage again.


"It was you" that convinced me what we had was worth the biggest mistake in my life. 


"it wasn't me" who demanded I change my last name 

"It was you" who told me time and time again that I could only prove my love of i did.


"It wasn't me" who changed after my surgery.

"It was you" that forgot who took care of you when you couldn't do it yourself.


It was me asked for the divorce out of the blue.


It wasn't you that told lies just to watch me.hurt.

 It was me I lost myself in you.


Most of it wasn't you that hurt in the end

It was me. I'm the one that still hurts 6 months after the divorce 


It was me. It was always me

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Author's Notes/Comments: 

For my ex husband. Writing this is my way of expressing the pain he caused .e

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