It was not an easy thing to do
But it was as simple as
Sending a message from my brain
To my legs, for them to move,
I've done it maybe a million times,
But this time I couldn't kick it in,
I was sitting there working up
Something to say to remedy things,
Sometimes you can't though,
You can't keep shooting words
And expecting them to stick,
So I sat there and collected
All my strength, which was very little,
I cried, as I imagined I would,
The walls squeezed me tight
until this room was as uncomfortable
As any I had been in,
I was a foreign invader
In a body of someone healthy
And her words were strong medicine,
I did though, get up,
I managed to get up and
Before I could walk away she
Hugged me and it ran through
My brain that this was it,
This was the last time I would get
To hold this version of a person
Who after this moment would cease,
She would move on
And my usual self would stay stuck
For a year or two like I always do,
But I'll never forget the stranglehold
Of that room,
And the feeling of my legs revolting
Against My decision,