The sound of bells wanders into my ears
and I know you are watching me.
A thick line of dirt covers my body,
invisible to everyone but you and I.
My hand caresses the cross over my heart
where I swore I would die or fiend the needles in my eyes.
How childish can one girly be?
No matter how much it hurts,
I begged for your return.
The layer of dirt grows, along with your lies.
Cannot find a way to wash it
the marks on my body will not erase.
Bells jingle in my ears as you pluck it from my neck.
Torment me in the form of a simple sound
pulling the ribbon from my neck and shredding it.
"Good bye?" I cry out.
The sense of 'icky' grows on my body
forming into growths and mold to keep the predators away.
I want you back in my arms
until the bell sounds and my body aches for protection.
Slowly the water pours from their arms,
the soap foams from my heart,
and I am naked in front of everyone.
Marks and mold melt off my body and mind.
I fall to my knees,
the weight of a new bell too much to carry alone.
My body tingles from the silky touch of a new towel
soaking in the desire to be free.
Hands pat me down and dress me with confidence.
Morals and values thrive without all the grime.
I stand and the bell sways
clanking and sounding again
and again
and again.
A heart attack ensues and I am paralyzed with fear.
But the hands brush my hair back,
pushing me into the light.
They hold me tight and then release me,
"Fresh and Clean."