there is something deep inside of me,
no longer sleeping, yes it grows.
i'm waiting oh so paciently,
for what it is, who knows?
i question all authority,
i deny the things i preach.
with everything confusing me,
there is nothing for me to teach.
i hide away my sanity,
i pray that this will end.
run away from all the yelling,
so long as i can't be condemned.
my promises are breaking now,
so left and incomplete.
my world is shaking up right now,
there is nothing left for me.
i sigh and shift so awkwardly,
but there is no surprise.
i'll fight away this darkness,
i'll commit mental suicide.
the pieces fall apart so nice,
and together they become old.
i place them close to my heart,
and it is them i grab ahold.
inside of me there is something,
what it is i don't know.
but it looms in front of me,
and now it wants to grow.