My heart didn't use to be
so wary,
So numb
So shattered...and so lonely.
It didn't happen
overnight.
No,
More like years
of careless
mishandling.
Too many nights of neglect.
It took time to shatter
so many hopes,
so many dreams.
To un-fall
what I once fell into.
See, all those words,
just used like weapons?
Aiming to hurt
to wound
and to crush?
All those looks given,
as though such disdain
was from where they came?
Its never changed
for each day brings
more of the same.
Except now?
Now I have no more reason
to keep myself
aligned, so a target.
Nothing now,
to hold the ties
that no longer bind...
...anything.
But as usual,
I remain incarcerated.
For I have nowhere
and nothing to call my own-
as so often,
I'm reminded.
But one day...
And no,
this isn't bitterness,
it isn't anger.
Nor revenge.
Its simply that...
You broke me.
Its survival.
You broke me.
Its awakening.
You broke me.
It's mine.
And no one
can pick up
my pieces
and attempt
the repairing.
No one,
but me.
I'll fix me-
since you...
You broke me.