I've tried so long, so hard, to never fully break,
But so many of my smiles, well, they were only fake.
In vain, I even dreamed, of maybe some better days,
Only I couldn't see them, for this pain's cruel haze.
Relief is fleeting, in the rare moments it appears.
I'm shocked I'm still afloat, in this flood of my tears.
Nowhere is there a place, save for Heaven's Merciful Grace,
That will allow respite, from this agony, continuously, I face.
So that is my goal, the destination I most anxiously await,
That will one day release me, at last, from this earthly fate.
But until then, I remain victim, of this tormenting subsistence,
I only pray I can hold on, with hope, strength and resistance.