Why must I exist,
in state,
such as this?
Where compassion
is offered not my way
by those you'd expect.
Where all I long for,
is a normalcy,
I can't seem to find here.
Why must I suffer,
so much, so long
so hard, so intensely?
When all I wish,
is a day,
unlike all before.
When a simple smile,
sent my way,
has no ulterior motive.
Why must I continue,
to remain
where love has failed?
Where eyes,
that in past, spoke much,
now say nothing.
Where falseness stands
before me,
in such obvious truth.
Why must I expose myself
to these sufferings,
so unwanted nor provoked?
When it only serves
to add upon the misery
and the doubt.
When all I most desire,
is only plainly, simply, naturally,
to be loved...