matter-less

could I matter less

you manipulate the gold from my twisted fingers
cracked and dry with no boundaries 
your passion and hands pry
into the curiosity that is me
evidently famished and lusting for french toast and tea
but could I
matter less
I want to dive off this porcelain ring
right into the comfort of the steaming contents within
but could I
matter less
you declare more than you've sacrificed
how do I appreciate love mixed with such vice
when I would do absolutely anything
to make my way to her
and I know I'm a burden
but holy fuck I've endured 
but could I
matter less
you're not the only one with a storm held within
you don't have to unleash on me, oh everything
showing me just how much
to you I am matter-less
pour my a drink for my cuts are open wide
squeeze out my decency and wring out everything good in me
so I'll see through your blurred eyes
just how much I
matter less
I have nothing to offer
when you have nothing to gain
I've worked toward change (revolution)
but stagnation remains
when to you I'm so unlovable 
when the good in me is so untouchable 
it never matters what I put myself through
how high and which hoops I jump through
forever I
am matter less  
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