did i just let those flood gates open?
that wasn't mine to see
but how could not see
when it's there, staring just in frount of me?
and laughter
who created laughter?
the feeling in your belly there after
oh that is mine to keep
and the words we wishpered, bellowed, soft and deep
and i'm in regret
i have to admit i'm upset
though now i say it softly
didn't you ever want me?
when i once was my better self?
and now without warning
curning inside me it's storming
why is it when i look for a cure
i end up shaken, not stirred
and in the end i am asking
'what was allthis for?'