i never worry
when the whiteness engulfs me.
i feel nothing.
so stark and clear.
my mind is washed and once again pure.
i feel nothing.
no cry
no quiver
no sense
that im anywhere near my body.
it is the absolute blueness that startles me.
im out in the middle of the sea
but i cannot swim.
my bones are tired
from the current.
i fear i cant move past.
ive got my baby
waiting for me by the shore,
but my muscles grow weary
and have succumbed
to the gentle pull.
i need you back
to take this sad away from me.
ive tried to fight this drowning by myself.
i dont think im strong enough this time around