I've taken a back seat
Most all of my life.
Take it with a smile
Coupled with frustration
Confusion.
I've grown up knowing
I will always be at best
Second best.
Try as I might
It has defined my life.
I sit here,
Once again,
Pushed away
Not enough to even distract
Second best.
Each day passes
As I fall further away.
In every aspect of my life
I can't be what is needed,
I can only take the backseat.
Words rarely heard,
Presence barely felt,
Thoughts disregarded,
Feelings aren't there,
Hardly a significant being.
I put my head down,
Wait for the day
When I can say
I'm not second best,
That I am just as good.
The words my father told me,
So many years ago,
Will always hold true for me
No matter what I do
"There's always going to be someone better than you"