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To the one that broke my heart

for what I’m hoping is the last time.

As much as I want to be angry at you

I’m thankful.

Thank you for

being the person that you are

for caring for me

for asking about my kids

for the wonderful times

for the long passionate kisses

for the tight hugs

and especially for your time.

You showed me a glimpse of the way I should have been treated this entire time.
You truly made me feel as if I was the one.

But I now know you were just another lesson in this crazy life of mine.

You helped me grow my walls a little higher and little thicker around my heart.

I’ve caught myself looking at photos of you and you still make my heart race.

All I can think is you have a piece of me that I can never get back.

I wish I hadn’t opened up to you.

I wish I would have guarded myself better.

Part of me wishes I never meet you, while the other part of me knows I needed to meet you.

I’ve been let down time and time again.

I will survive and I will rise.

I will never understand why I would let myself think that we could be together.

What a sick joke this universe decided to play on me but it was a good one.

I’ll laugh at my stupidity and my dumb self for falling yet again.

I’m not mad at you if anything I’ve thought a lot of the good times we had.

I’ve caught myself giggling at some of times

we would be laughing together.

I reminisce on our times we just held each

or when we would just stare into each other’s eyes.


ah, you really grabbed hold of my fragile soul but, maybe if this wasn’t just a sick joke brought to us by the universe, we’ll meet again under different circumstances and really see where this could have gone!
I wish you well.

 

 

-BEL 

Author's Notes/Comments: 

A heartbreak from a year ago. Beautiful to look back sometimes. Reminisce on the memories of love. 

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