You never realize how alone you are
Until you are among your closest friends
Only then do you see your weaknesses; your flaws
Only then do you realize you're an outcast
But one day i'll have the power i need
I'll have the strength to walk away...
i'll have the knowledge to know why...
and the good sense never to look back.
that first stanza, was how i was feeling one night. your exact words capture my mood. read my poem, "a nobody," its about the same night.