Born gay and raised by a single woman, a naturally sensitive and romantic pisces that oblivously grew up to be a pretty gay man!
Excellent taste and manerrisms inherited from my mother, I expected the same level of love that I witnessed her go through that most gay men will never understand!
Not gifted with stong mental scolastics, constantly bullied for being learning disabled; insecurity lead me to skipping school and delivered to countless strange men that always generously gave me a glance!
Failure after failure in the pursuit of genuine and organic love left me vulnerable to settling for factions of superficial love pursuaded by quick money from admirers of my looks with every chance.
Knowing I was special despite physically resembling millions of other gay men served as no consolation in this super competitive and judgemental lifestyle!
So, survival instincts eventually took over and I began to give the men the objects of their desires;demanding I be treated like the king I am hasn't been a practice since I left home at 18 and was no longer a sheltered child!
I have had limitless experiences of me being shown by this hypocritical world that living my truth is definitely not encouraged.
As a matter of fact some of my blood family would prefer that I comform to the their closed minded lifestyles; loving my authentic self is definitely discouraged!
They would rather I use these women to produce offspring, blend in with society, supress my true feelings and pretend that all all that is ok!
Well news alert you mothafuckas I will never revert back to the closet like the ones you celebrate every day knowing they vitimize naive little boys because they are scared to live their real lives as gay!
The days of attending church weekly trying to praise the lord and then later dodging your pretentious straight husbands as I live my life were exhausting to say the least!
Especially with them knowing my hiv status yet still aggressively stalking me because they heard from their fellow downlow buddies that in bed I am a beast!!!
So, the next time you see me proudly living my life as a openly gay indiviual, remind yourself of what you just read even if it is a choice you will never support nor understand!
Better yet, do us both a favor and completely remove yourself from my life in any and all levels; that will prevent you subjecting yourself to the disguist of witnessing this unapologetic Pretty Gay Man!
By Bryant Mosley